Well, today’s post is going to be kinda short because I have an essay I should write. Today I have been married for 6 months. Yay! How great is that? It’s weird to think that six months ago I was getting ready for my wedding day. I think by now I had my hair in curls pinned to my head where they would stay for the next two-three hours before dousing my head in hair spray so that the curls would last at least through the pictures and the ceremony. Which they did. It was such a great day…
These were taken mostly by my bridesmaids and uploaded to my wedpics album. It was a nice thing to have. We got to see some pictures of the wedding while we waited for the professional ones to be finished, and one of my girls is amazing at photography. It’s been six months, and oh, how I wish I could go back and relive it because it was just wonderful.
Today’s challenge question isn’t very interesting: What’s one thing you use every day?
My phone. My hair brush. My comb. The shower. The toilet. The sink. The fridge. My computer. I know it said one thing, but come on, this isn’t very exciting.
All right, as soon as I write this paper I’ll be done with my finals! I have to present a scene tomorrow but we’ve been working on it for 3-4 weeks now, my professor is amazing, and I’ve got my own personal acting coach who is also my husband so I’m not worried. All right. I have to go write it now. If I can get it done before work that’d be great. Ok. Go write. Now. Now. Now…
I’m obsessed with Frozen. The second it gets released on DVD I’m buying it. It’s just too good.
It is too cold, though. Our low tonight is 1. But oddly it’s going to get back up into the 40s as we get closer to Christmas. I’m not complaining. I can’t handle this cold. It’s insane. I’m also sick, so some warmer weather would be really nice. I’ve taken two days off of exercise now, but it’s okay because I need to get better. I don’t want to be sick any longer, so I’ll do anything to speed up the healing process. I remember when I used to freak out about rest days. Now I’m pretty chill about them. I had to work yesterday, which was difficult, and apparently I looked stoned, which made me sad because I didn’t look sick really, I just wasn’t wearing any makeup. :’(
Well, it’s over. I have one paper left to write and a scene to present (also why I need to get over my cold asap). Fall Quarter 2013 is over. I only have two more of these left. Wow. Almost done with college. I’ll be taking my personal training cert final in a week. I should probably start studying.
Day 7: Write about your favorite music
Well, Disney stuff. I listen to the background music they play at Disneyland, to songs from my favorite movies (all of them), and even a few old 90s and 2000s Disney Channel Star’s songs. On top of that I listen mainly to Lady Gaga, Selena Gomez, Demi Lovato, and show tunes. I used to listen to a lot of Paramore and Kelly Clarkson but not anymore. I actually hardly listen to music anymore. I can’t listen to it when I study and when I write I listen to movie soundtracks by Hans Zimmer. Right now I’m listening to Christmas music. It’s finally socially appropriate for me to do that!
The Actor and I have been watching Breaking Bad lately. We’re halfway through season 4, which means we’re almost done, and we love it. Because of it we have been missing Daily Show and Colbert, but we did watch one the other day. Jon Stewart had an actor on from the upcoming, or I guess out now? film The Dallas Buyers Club. He mentioned losing about 30 pounds over the course of the film, the majority of it before shooting, and the shooting period was very short. He said he ate 300-400 calories a day to lose all that weight. My head was screaming, “NO!” I turned to the actor and said, “You are not allowed to do that. If they expect you to lose weight or gain it, they are going to give you the proper amount of time to do it or they’ll just have to find someone else. It should really be in their best interest to keep their actors alive and in the best working condition possible.” I’ve seen what can be done with makeup and photo editing. Extreme dieting in 3-4 weeks to lose 30 pounds for a role should not be the case, or even allowed, really. The Actor did agree to the terms I’d laid out for him, and he knows that if they give him any trouble about it they’ll be hearing from me.
It’s just concerning that the most important part of making a movie or a TV show, the actors, aren’t protected more. How come so little of the world’s population understand the importance of health?? That concerns me more. I have heard so many times from the Actor and theater professors and professionals that an actor’s instrument is their body, and that they have to be basically athletes to do everything that they do. So why do they take care of themselves so badly? I’m sure not all of them do, but a lot of them. Both in their daily lives and when they have a role they have to play.
Anyway, on another note, here is the Day 6 challenge prompt.
Day 6: What is your favorite quote?
“The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique.” – Walt Disney
Well, one is pretty much anything Disney. Obviously. I think I need to get at least one more Disney tattoo. I have four more planned as of right now. Anyway, I saw Toy Story in the theaters when I was little, and that was the first movie I ever saw. My parents were smart and waited until I was about 2 or 3 to take me to a theater. Apparently I just sat and ate popcorn the whole time and didn’t make any noise. I went to Disneyland for the first time when I was 5 (5 day ticket was $95 dollars!). I just love it. I read a 600+ page biography on Walt Disney over the summer. I’ve seen all but 4 of their animated films (I think we’re at 53 now), and I go to a Disney park every year. Usually Disneyland, but I did just go to WDW in June for my honeymoon. Also, it’s Walt Disney’s birthday today!
My second obsession would have to be health and fitness. I haven’t been obsessed with this one as long as I have been obsessed with Disney, but it’s definitely got a huge spot in my life. I do so much research, once finals are over I’ll take my final exam for my personal training cert, and of course continue with my education. It is just such an important thing in a person’s life, and I know I have much more energy now than I ever did before. I’m stronger, more confident, healthier. I just can’t imagine my life without it. It’s so important to me. I love it.
Another obsession is probably music, but who isn’t obsessed with music to some degree? I do listen to Lady Gaga a lot, and have contemplated getting a “Little Monster” tattoo but have decided otherwise. Love her to death, though. Seriously.
I don’t think I’m obsessed with anything else. Maybe FRIENDS, but otherwise I’d just say everything else that I like I just like. Oh, Sherlock! Definitely obsessed with that. I can’t wait for the third season! I’m almost more excited for that than I am for Christmas. It’s close.
I had to think about this one because I’m so open with the Actor, and I don’t feel like I’m keeping any secrets from anyone. I mean, my family doesn’t know I’m bisexual, but they don’t have to know. That’s not their business, and I’ve already found the love of my life, so that doesn’t really matter. But that’s probably the only thing I’m keeping from people, and just them because of the previously stated reason, and they also think that bisexuality isn’t real. I just don’t want to deal with that. Otherwise I’m a fairly open person. No shame. I am myself.
But I guess one thing that people don’t know about me is that I’m not as quiet and well mannered as I look. I have good posture. My default facial expression is pretty bland, but it’s not angry or anything. My closest friend next to the Actor knows I’m not Ms. Perfect, but no one at my uni does. A lot of people apologize for cursing around me. They don’t even know. At a party a couple weeks ago I made a comment that I thought was pretty chill for me, but this guy turned around and looked really shocked. “I didn’t know you were like that,” they said, or something to that effect. It was a while ago, I don’t remember. My response was to laugh and smile and say, “You don’t know me at all.” I am so many things. I’m not just my disorders, I’m not some prim and proper girl. I’m definitely not as I appear.
I definitely do love how I look, though. I love my body. I love my features. I love my personality. I love me. Honestly. So, I guess that’s my “secret” or something. I’m not as nice as I look. I can be, but that doesn’t mean I am. Kinda lame for a secret.
Also, that is the Actor in the background putting up our Christmas tree.
It’s tall and skinny and we love it. Happy last night of Hanukkah!
I said that as a part of my vows. Yeah, I kinda took that line from Monica’s wedding vows from FRIENDS, but it’s true.
I’ve had best friends come and go in life. One of the girls I was close with switched schools, another got held back so being in grade school I didn’t get to see her anymore except for a few minutes before school every day. Another, we just drifted as we grew and became different people. Another, we started college at different places, but we still talk. In truth, though, no one knows me better than the Actor. No one else saw the daily struggle that I went through with my depression and recovery, and no one else tried as hard as he did to help me through it. Not even, sadly, my mom, but she was understandably stressed out with her separation/divorce, my little brother dealing with our dad not living with us anymore and never being told specifically why, medical bills coming in for my treatment, and just not wanting to understand the disorder because it’s weird and scary. I get that, but the Actor did everything he could. We’ve also just grown together as we’ve gotten older. I was looking back through old pictures of us back when we started dating. We look so young, even though it’s only been about five years that we’ve been together. I remember the way we both acted back then, and even now we still fit together. I tell him everything, and he tells me everything, well, when I give him a chance to talk. I talk a lot. He’s my best friend and I’m lucky to get to spend the rest of my life with him.
I’d say that right now my life is pretty awesome. I may not be working my dream job, but I do enjoy my coworkers, and my job is pretty mindless so it’s easy. I may not enjoy all my classes, but at least I’m going for free now (grants), and I will eventually take classes I enjoy and need. I have a wonderful husband and we love our life together. Coming back home from break really made us realize how we’ve built our own lifestyle together and just how much better it fits us than the way our parents live.
So my life is good, but I still want to grow. My ultimate dream profession sounds kinda silly, and people always give me weird looks when I tell them about it. My ultimate dream is to work in the story department of PIXAR and be a personal trainer at the same time. I have this image of me leading everyone through a quick yoga flow or one superset to help us work through a block. I imagine getting up early to go train a few people, going to PIXAR to work on whatever movie I’m working on, working out on my way home, maybe training a few more people, and then going to sleep to do it all over again. Maybe we end up working on a story all night. Whatever. Yoga through it. Run around the giant campus. Be in super shape to go see the premiere once it’s all done. It’s weird, but that’s my dream profession. I’ll definitely settle for screenwriter and personal trainer. But working at PIXAR is my dream.